Wednesday, February 11, 2015

And again...Forgiveness

Ephesians 4:32 – Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Matthew West – "Forgiveness" lyrics really put the guilts on me….I know what I have to do….70x7… takes all I can to fall and come back up…..over and over again….from the highest of highs to the depth of the seas.....roller coaster days.....this is the life of a RAD child mother....this is the life of any mother who loves their children....especially the teen years! 

It’s the hardest thing to give away
And the last thing on your mind today
It always goes to those who don’t deserve
It’s the opposite of how you feel
When the pain they caused is just too real
It takes everything you have to say the word

It flies in the face of all your pride
It moves away the mad inside
It’s always anger’s own worst enemy
Even when the jury and the judge
Say you got a right to hold a grudge
It’s the whisper in your ear saying “set it free”


Show me how to love the unlovable
Show me how to reach the unreachable
Help me now to do the impossible

Help me now to do the impossible

It’ll clear the bitterness away
It can even set a prisoner free
There is no end to what its power can do
So let it go and be amazed
By what you see through eyes of grace
The prisoner that it really frees is you

Show me how to love the unlovable
Show me how to reach the unreachable
Help me now to do the impossible
I want to finally set it free
So show me how to see what Your mercy sees
Help me now to give what You gave to me

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Cold Frosty Morning

You dance on my windows
You display your artistic flows
Patterns that grow
In the cold morning slow

The defrost on high
Is your demiseful goodbye
Your beautiful freeze
Gone in the hot breeze

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining

Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining
I grew up hearing this – who hasn’t heard this.  Another popular one was “the darkest hour is just before dawn.”  I always picture Jesus Christ on the cross, that last hour of suffering before heaven and eternal life.  And one more….”light at the end of the tunnel.”
I’m looking for the silver lining these days, looking for the light, craving dawn….these are dark days again.  Waves are crashing on the rocks of my life. 
Trying to stay positive, trying to choose happiness and keep it.  It eludes me too often.   If only I could have a constant thought process like: I fell down the stairs today and thought, “Wow! I sure fell down those stairs fast!”   Keep it positive.  I'm a realist.
I believe that if I walk with God, I’ll reach that destination….that happiness and joy can be a daily thing.  My son strives to make me laugh….he is successful more oft than not, he sees the stress, feels the stress, hovers to protect me…I see his love for me and recognize my hurt has him taking on this protective role.  I welcome the laughter when it comes….washing over me in soothing massages. He wants to lash out at the cause and I halfheartedly hold him back – it isn’t his fight.  Why is it a fight?
The word “failed” runs through my head….then off in the distance I see peace and joy and I want to reach for it, move forward despite the pain to get there…I’m ready.  Many won’t understand – it will be that way. It is okay…they haven’t walked our walk.  The whisper of release pulls me.  I’m so sorry….but I want the storm to stop.  This isn’t only for me, but for the others….they need this too...
Sometimes painful things teach us lessons that we didn’t want or think we needed to know. I don’t know why this happened so I’ll put my trust in God even though this doesn’t make sense.
I pray for release.....I pray for peace.  Let the sun set and rise to show a new day.

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